Obstacles in Life
I have faced two great obstacles in life and they both happened at once. It all started when my father passed away in the summer of 2003. My mom fell into depression and later into a delusional state which lasted about three months. I had to care for my two little sisters back then. I had to feed my sisters and my depressed mother, clean the house, worry about the bills, worry about the first day of school and the pressure of going to school and facing the teachers telling me how sorry they were.(School was the worst nightmare of my life. I got bullied by my best friend and her new friends; I got laughed at for being an orphan.) I tried committing suicide that year after my little brother was born in 2004. I stayed in the hospital for a week.
I went back home to become a mother again because my mom fell into after birth depression. We have no family in Colorado. My mom’s friends helped me a little with the cooking and cleaning. We got a nana to help us at home. My mom became delusional in the summer of 2004. This is one of the days from my diary of when my mom became delusional.
“Today was horrible! My mom went to our old house and she went crazy. She parked in the driveway and got out of the car and knocked on the door and this guy opened the door and she asked for my dad. Karla our nana got out of the car and tried to persuade my mom to get in the car but my mom resisted and got inside the house screaming for my dad. She called our old number but obviously it was disconnected. I was crying because she freaked out when she saw Jael and Miguel the small children because she did not recognize them. She finally came to the car and fell asleep in the passenger seat. It was horrible!”
We did have a physiologist but they weren’t there the whole day. They gave my mom Zoloft and after having that medication she would sleep the whole day. I suddenly burst on April 18, 2005. I nearly gave up living, but then realized I had brought pain and my...