I’ve been calling and calling for you, but you answer and I shut my mouth: I’ve been trying so hard to tell you what’s wrong, but when I get the chance to, I get too scared and back away.
I’ve been searching and searching for you, but myself, I don’t want to be found: I was hoping you would understand, searching for your help and support. But I don’t want it because I don’t think I deserve it.
You say I am, you say let go, you say believe, but it’s not that easy for me: You tell me to let go of my worries and problems, and believe that everything will be okay. But it’s not as easy as you would think.
You say wait, you say right now, but don’t you see you’re already one foot in the ground, you say: You tell me to wait, and think about the situation I’m in. But don’t you see it has already been planted so deep into the ground that I can’t let it go.
I’ve been wicked, and wild, and wrong, and I’ve wondered the price of my shame: I know that I have been wrong, and wild in the way I acted, and since then I’ve wondered if it was all worth it in the end.
I’ve been hiding my face for so long, it’s a wonder that you know my name: I tried to avoid you, even dodged conversations with you. It seems weird that you even remember we were friends.
You say come home, you say I’m here, you say there’s some things you just can’t control: You say that you’re here for me, to go back to the way things used to be, that you understand that I couldn’t control my emotions.
You say let me, you say believe, why do you search for the answers you already know, you say: You want me to let you back into my life, back to normal, you want me to believe you that it’ll be ok. But why do you question me when you know I’ll agree?
I am the way and the light and the truth, don’t be mislead by the flight of your youth:
Have faith in the things you can’t see to believe, what if you had faith in me: I know I should trust you, and have faith in you, but I don’t know if you’ll...